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Tuesday, February 14th, 2006
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Saturday, September 25th, 2004
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GOD, I've been feeling soooooo sick since I drank that coffee last night. I have NO clue what the hell is wrong with me but I just wanna dieeeeee~!!!. Headaches, nausea, lack of sleep, stomach pains... I'LL NEVER DRINK COFFEE AGAIN.
... AND MY FUCKING COMPUTER CLOCK KEEPS RESETTING ITSELF 348654893649843 TIMES --- I DON'T KNOW WHAT THE FUCK IS WRONG WITH IT BUT ARGH, I DON'T EVEN KNOW HOW MANY OF MY PAST ENTRIES HAVE THE WRONG TIME. GRRRR.
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Friday, September 24th, 2004
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Geezus, I always wanted to try drinking coffee as a means of being able to stay awake during the school day and whatnot... The last time I had coffee was a looong time ago, when I was still a little kid; and I remembered it not working at all. Anyway, so when we went to Pathmark, I picked out some container with foldgers; damn, coffee is surprisingly expensive.
I just tried it out right now... Ugh, I clearly used waay too much of the coffee beans (if you can call it that) coz it tasted sooo bitter. I had to add a ton of milk and sugar to try to negate that awful taste and it still wasn't enough. Instead the milk just made the coffee turn cold...
But anyway, I still drank it all. I must say... I actually feel a helluva lot MORE sleepy after that... Plus it left a nasty aftertaste and I think it made me feel sick. Blegh, what a terrible experience. I have a slight headache now and a loss of appetite. Geezus, I don't know if I ever wanna drink coffee again and to think, I used to like it when I was little. But hey... I picked it out so I can't let it go to waste... AAHHH~!!!
I'm gonna have to turn the house upside down over this weekend in order to find my gym uniform... I REFUSE to waste another 25 bucks for something so stupid. I purposely woke up mad early today so I could get in during zero period and go to Ms. Wagman (or however the fuck you spell it) on the 10th floor...
God, what a bitch. I never really spoke to her in person -- maybe a few times, don't really recall but I never would've guessed how nasty she was. Mr. Rodger said we would be able to get the uniform for free so that's what I assumed when I went to talk to her. God, I didn't really mind what she said but she gave me this whole fucking attitude and this bitchy tone. "WHAT!? If you have the money, then buy it!"
Go to hell bitch, it's you fuckheads that are making us waste our money by enforcing the stupid policy in the first place. You're all just a bunch of greedy pigs that want that money to put in your pockets; so don't even be fucking bitching about how a bunch of old recycled uniforms aren't to be given away for free or asking "how much money you got?". Who the fuck knows where those old things have been? How the hell did an old hag like her become the AP of phys ed anyway? Why isn't she dead yet? Geezus, she looks like she's frigging 110. I hope she DOES fucking die; she's already one of my most hated figures in this school (I honestly don't have many). That attitude of hers... ugh, what a PMSy hoe.
So yea, at least it meant being able to make it to first period on time... FINALLY! I make it to that class... and found out that Chi's in that class too! Yay!
And ugh, talk about bad luck. Turns out Randol really IS in my gym class... Sighh... I was much better off before. I really don't have much of a right to judge but she still appears to be pretty obnoxious; why am I not surprised? He showed up for the first time yesterday... so why wait til then? Fernando's there too... -shrugs-
Anyway, lucky for me today... Mr. Rodger was absent so that gave me the weekend to try to find my uniform and not get penalized for not having it yet.
ATOK is getting more boring and complicated. We had our first class debate today and it was pretty messy coz it was our first time and I don't think we had enough preparation to engage in such a group activity just yet. People were just being very obnoxious and saying whatever they could -- regardless of how stupid it was.
Sharlene and I both agreed that the whole thing was just plain silly because the whole thing was so unorganized and informal. And it was mad embarassing for me coz I said something that the other team managed to prove wrong. Geezus, who knew you had to be so specific? I gotta be more careful next time.
Anyways, I don't have much else to say... mainly coz I feel sick from the coffee...
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Wednesday, September 22nd, 2004
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Weeelll, I HAVE been trying to put a little more effort into schooling but when it comes to doing homework; that seems to be a whole different story. I guess I can't really say I'm NOT doing it since it's only the beginning and we're hardly being assigned any because of that... but to already be taking it easy now? Boy, wonder how I'll handle the real work then.
Anyway, I'm starting to get used to my schedule; it's not that bad I guess. I'm starting to become aquainted with a few people; a lot quicker than I thought it would happen. I definetely don't think it's as awful anymore... with the exception of the first two periods still bugging me...
Ugh, having to pay 25 bucks for the gym uniform? What a waste; I'm really upset that I can't find my old T-shirt; the shorts don't fit. Geezus, having to buy another one for just one term; one stupid little gym credit? And the lockers are tiny as hell; how in the world did I manage to fit stuff in them during sophomore year? Well, Mario got transferred out so it's nice to not have to see him anymore and Randol's name is no longer on the attendance (WHEW)... but there are still a few individuals there that I don't neccessarily like making contact with; hopefully it won't happen... EVER.
Geezus, I really shouldn't be missing any classes at all and have absolutely NO intention of doing so. But the frigging longass line outside during the morning still remains! I tried arriving at 8:15 and I find myself being kept in the last section of seats in the auditorium. Today, I purposely made an effort to leave the house far earlier than I ever would on a normal basis... And the line is still crazy at 8! SHIT!
I'm certainly not excited about going to Stats but like I said; that teacher is so strict that it's make it even worse... Having only shown up for one day so far; that's awful.
My mom's birthday was on Sunday. We celebrated early on Saturday before my sister returned upstate. I bought her this pair of sweat pants from Aeropostale (as always...). It's yellow and has a cute monkey picture on it... hope it's not too young looking for her; took forever to decide her size... It ended up being too big; I hope she likes it though.
We went to the same restaurant as the other time... We were mad upset when we found out the aunts from my stepdad's side decided to invite themselves. These are the aunts that hate my mom, are constantly harassing her and treating her like crap. To show up on her special day seemed like... well, freeloading basically. But, fortunately, they actually did give my mom red envelopes and seemed rather thankful for the meal. So, it wasn't so bad after all. It just felt awkward.
My stepdad's a fucking pussy for picking on me; taking all his anger out on me just because he can. Does he really think that waving a butcher's knife infront of my face makes him all-powerful and dominating? Please, whatever; ANYone that's pointing a weapon at you can seem frightening or scary. Stupidass, you aint shit. And duh, it's easy to believe you'll do it coz YOU DON'T GOT ANYTHING TO LIVE FOR ANYMORE.
I'm sorry but growing up, I had lowass self-esteem but you constantly kept assuming I was stuck up, thinking I was "smart" and "right" and yatta yatta. Well, guess what? You can keep saying that bullshit all you want coz NOW it's FINALLY true. I know I never did you wrong; even if I did, it'd perfectly justified considering that this is YOU I'm talking about.
I got into an arguement with my mom because I was tired of her telling me to do shit; Example: constantly telling me I "should" learn how to drive when she really just wants a taxi driver (coz that's the ONLY reason why I stopped loving the idea of being able to drive). And then that bitchass loser starts fucking trying to interrogate me in that stupid way of his, that puts you in the spot and makes you all nervous and shit. Whatever, lameass been doing that since I was fucking 5 years old. I was so tired of that stupid shit; the same fucking routine everytime and a huge percentage of those times not being his own damn business. I told him to mind his own business and he started thinking he's all big and scary and shit.
Whatever yo, uglyass bastard; you need to learn to mind your own fucking business and grow some balls. He's just like the kids I go to school with (and back then, even CLASS with). "Don't mess with me! I WILL kill you! I'm crazy! You don't know what I would do! Yatta yatta etc." Grow up already, obnoxious brat.
Who the fuck you think you are? SERIOUSLY. You aint nothing to me. You have NO relation to me and vice versa. I'd be humilated to be associated with an ugly airhead like you. You just forced your way into my life; I see it as a very unfortunate tragedy that took over my life and cursed it. Fucking dumbass saying I'm TWENTY something. Hello, fuckhead! Are you fucking stupid (well, duh)?! My older sister aint even twenty something. I don't even LOOK twenty; I've never been able to fake my age no matter how many times I try. Stop thinking fucking thinking I'm old enough to be kicked out of the house just coz you WANT it to be that way. And don't you dare fucking think that if you convince yourself I'm an old hag like you; that you can expect shit from me... ESPECIALLY not respect or even "fake" good manners. Fuck, I wouldn't give you anything remotely positive no matter how mature and old I am. Please, do something about your state of retardedness.
Anyways, I didn't even write any of that stuff above out of anger. I'm not ranting or anything; I just felt like writing it out to settle things. Besides, that's how I normally think of him regardless of my mood or the situation. I REALLY hope he dies a miserable death soon -- that would be yaay~! (Graduation present!)
Although the company in my class is getting much better; the classes themselves are simply getting a lot more boring. It's harder to pay attention now in ATOK coz I can't stop talking to neighbors... And English is... boring as hell... And science is still boring with extremely uncomfortable seating that makes my leg fall asleep -- damn stools practically killed a woman some time ago! They should be banned by now!
I finally got the courage to get a new copy of my transcript after... a year pretty much. My average dropped by 3 points; pretty much exactly what I expected somehow. Man, I don't know if I'll be able to get them back... That damn AP Cal really messed things up; the only failing grade and it just looks sooo ugly!
Oh yea, and of course, I went to the (well, MY) new counselor, Ms. Toomey... She's a bit eccentric; in the sense that she seems REALLY loud and moody. But she's pretty nice; not THAT nice... not like Ms. Lin but when compared to Goodwin; she's an angel. She actually took the time to look over my transcript with me... Turns out the only credits I need are: 1 gym, 1 health and 2 art & music. EXACTLY like that! I currently have 40.08. .58 from Summer school PE... how odd... And how come he only gave me a frigging lowass 80?! GRRR. I mean, I know I was lazy and unmotivated by I was always early and yatta yatta.
For some reason, my Italian regents grade wasn't on the transcript... Uh-oh! One of my best scores! I had to discuss that with Gualtierri and she said we'd look it up next week (it's a 91, I swear!).
Oh... yea, and the reason why I think Ms. Toomey is very nice is because she seems a lot more involved and considerate. She asked all the students about their career interests and when I mentioned Psychology, she actually offered me the class... Wow, I was really flattered; that's a real honor considering what happened last year...
Man, I don't know, it's an interesting class and all but I don't know how it might change my schedule. She said I'd probably have an extra period-ECK, having 6 periods was the one good thing about my program. Besides, I wanna take it easy this year... Aryana says the class is very easy but I dunno. It's not that big a decision but I probably won't go with it.
Ehh... besides, without section now; the periods are much longer and I get out around 1 PM... it doesn't seem like such a short schedule anymore; huge difference coz now I miss Home Delivery! Lol, I was starting to like that show. I think helping up people is very sweet and generous.
I'm hesitant to buy SH4 coz it seems like my money is disappearing quickly... and I don't know; I just sorta lost interest after seeing the harpies (HUGE phobia) and even more after reading some negative reviews. I was so shocked to hear that Trudi was playing it and liking it! Geesh! The same Trudi that thought ZELDA OOT was scary?!
They had a SH4 commerical at the beginning of the REA movie. Eh, how typical and rather amusing. Anyway, I saw the REA movie the other day. Eh... it was okay, not what I expected. It was kinda boring; heck, even Wicker Park was better. The storyline was kinda lame and it just felt way too different from the games.
I mean, the action was very good and all; fighting sequences looking very real... but they were very boring and mediocre... just firearm, hand to hand combat and blades; the closest they came to something creative was using gas and a lighter (talk about simple). What made the games so great was how resourceful the characters were... especially JILL.
Jill was portrayed completely differently in the movie. Sienna Guillory was able to pull off the walk but the writers made the character very manufactured. Jill was more of a "damsel in distress" that was emotional and compassionate; the one in the movie was very uptight and serious. In the game, she was very smart and an engineer (or something like that); therefore was able to take advantage of what was in her environment. They could've at least made her pick a lock at some point in the movie.
The monsters were pretty well-done; except for the lickers, they looked kinda fake. Nemesis looked good but was really boring... He was supposed to be MAAD smart in the game and always made very dramatic appearances; he also had many forms.
And UGH, another cliffhanger ending! Enough already damnit! The ending seemed so dragged... And Umbrella was NOT that powerful in the game. Oooh... The Grudge remake with Sarah Michelle Gellar looks cool... very freaky though and very Japanese (of course).
My sis brought home Sims 2 over the weekend! Yay! Too bad it's incompatible with my sucky outdated comp... -sniffle- I mean, it works and all but it laags so much that I gave up with it... But from what I did play of it, it's mucho fun... I was kinda expecting more though; it still seems a bit restricted considering the long wait.
Man, you can do soo much to customize the faces of your sims but you can't even modify the physique! That totally sucks ass! But I think it's cool that you can have the different ages and different colors... but man, why did the colors have to be limited? Why couldn't they just give use a huge color chart like in imaging programs?
Damn, my sims character looks good! Too bad he doesn't look anything like me -- hey, I tried. They didn't even have my lip color. Family restrictions really suck... I made myself a teen but teens aren't allowed to live without a parent... So I made up a fake dad. I made an adult Peter (he looks sexy too! they didn't have shape-ups so I just gave him the braids) but he couldn't just be "roomies" with David. Man, talk about a crushed fantasy. Teens can't hook up with adults either coz in the Sims world, that's considered "wrong" lol.
It's so cool that you can have so many extra floors -- don't know how many but one of the default houses had upto 5 already! Man, the default houses really show how you can get very creative with the designs. And it's hot that you can choose different textures and colors for items -- too bad those are limited too.
Cassandra Goth grew up and became rich apparently. Lol, she's started a family of her own.
Damn, my new Jansport is getting dirty mad quick.
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Wednesday, September 15th, 2004
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that damn bitch and that fucking brat loves to piss the hell outta me.
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Just when I thought it couldn't get much worse... So anyway, from the beginning...
Lemme tell you, when you're half asleep you start to think up the craziest things... It's like being drunk, you start hallucinating and literally diving into a false reality. That often causes me to be late as I believe in some crazy excuse for staying in bed...
Anyway, I was awake on time this morning but I decided to stay in bed for a couple minutes longer... But then my fucking bitchass stepdad slams the door open and starts yelling; as if I was late or something. Fucking ass-hole, when the hell is he going to die already? I've been waiting so many damn years and for so long he's carried on such an unhealthy lifestyle; why won't the bitch just die already? God, even if he had every disease in the world, he would still find motivation, energy and obligation to bitch at people. He pisses me off all the time but I try not to blog about it much coz then I'd be giving him too much credibility.
Bad way to start off the day but I would forget about it after a short while. I bet you it was probably that ass-hole's fault that I was distracted enough to forget to set the timer to record Jerry Springer.
I finally started studying SAT vocab flashcards on the subway... Honestly, I really don't know if it's gonna be any help but hopefully; it'll at least help improve my daily vocabulary. So many damn words... so hard to memorize even a fraction of them all... But the 300 in this deck doesn't feel like too much... But then there's always all the books and other flashcards I have for SAT prep...
I ran into Jose C while on line... Blegh, he dragged me into a long convo about FFXI. I usually try my best to avoid him whenever I see him.
I managed to make it to section this time and on time. It was boring as hell; I just continued studying the flashcards.
Well, I went to Statistics for the first time today. It's official now, ALL my classes are on the left side of the school on the 7th or 8th floor. Argh...
Anyway, the class was definetely not what I expected... in some good ways but mostly bad... I could've sworn from the name that the teacher would be a woman... Oh well, I was caught by surprised when Cheryl greeted me. I hope I won't hate her again this year. She and Aryana were the only that got a 3 on the AP bio; everyone else got a 2 according to her. That made me feel a little better...
ARRGGHHH~!! Jhan (or however he spells it) is sooooo fucking sexy! It could be the shape of his eyebrows but he always has a very serious and angry expression... I don't he smiles very often. I've been noticing him since last year; could not take my eyes off of him. He's in my TOK class and also arrived late for my stats class today. He sat behind me. Sooo sexy! But damn, he's so frigging mean, obnoxious, angry and rebellious for his age. He kept making fun of the teacher's accent coz he was given an attitude for being late... and other stuff I'll get into that right now...
But anyway, that was just my sudden quick spasm that I've been holding in for a long time. I won't be talking about him every again... I just couldn't keep quiet anymore after so many months.
So anyway, I can easily tell stats gunna be my second least favorite. Honestly, as *boring* as all my other classes are; I still think I can easily handle them... But first and second period just... turned my schedule from plain boring to pure shit.
The teacher does not have the attitude of Nanka-Bruce but his demands are far higher... Pop quizes and exams every week? My god! Just when I thought I was given a break; I couldn't believe how this ONE subject could ask for sooo much more than the other three combined! And his policies are so child-ish... absent notes from parents, phone calls, yatta yatta. So retarded; like this is elementary.
SIGHHH... but evenso, there's still gym class which is also shitty. God, that instructor is so PMSy; he needs to calm down. Plus, he demands wearing the full school uniform everyday. What a pain in the ass. One of my most hated aspects of PE has always been the fuss of having to get changed. Mario started talking to me today. Bleh, I don't wanna start talking to him again. And even worse, Randol's name was on the roster. UGH, you've GOT to be kidding me!
Lunch is a complete waste of time according to me. I wish I just had it last period so I could go home even earlier. TOK is pretty interesting but a little weird, English was boring as hell and Science was sooo tiresome. I practically jumped off my seat when the bell rang.
God... I'm so upset... Senior year was supposed to be... so different. I had such high expectations but my schedule is such crap. The only good thing is being able to leave early; the extra time makes a huge difference... but is it really worth it?
So much for my new Timberland "Cinch bag". Already gonna have to trade it in and start using my new jansport... Coz now I'm gonna have to pack quite a lotta shit; mainly the stupid gym uniform. Ugh.
Uggghhhhh....
As for rpg news, I think I'm gonna stop searching all over the web and constantly checking for updates on FFXII and KH2. I know it's insanely hard for anticipating and extremely impatient fans like me to resist but I honestly feel that the surprise will be a lot more rewarding when those games come out.
Anyway, I DID however read about the new FFVII game for PS2... I've always been extremely skeptical and anti-FFVII sequel but this could be very interesting...
Semagic is glitchy as a bitch. I think I'm gunna switch back to the older version.
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Tuesday, September 14th, 2004
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I had trouble falling asleep last night for some reason. Maybe I'm still struggling to fix my sleeping schedule... but I kinda had a lot on my mind; one of the main thing's was what the hell to wear the next day... Always an annoying issue.
And God, I can't believe I got woken up around 3-4 AM just because of some noise from the friggin fan. It took me a ridiculously long time to fall back asleep and the whole time, I was thinking radically unpleasant thoughts...
I ended up waking up 15 mins and strangely, it made a difference since I was kinda taking my time to get ready. I still had no clue what to wear and just picked out something typical that I've worn multiple times before. I'm so glad CN shows Pokemon in the morning at 7 AM; so amusing.
I didn't think the line would still be around by the second day but it was actually even worse. It was shorter in length but I literally didn't see it moving; except barely. I don't even know I bothered deciding to wait; all the other times, I would just walk away and come back later when everyone had already gone in... But I ran into Dominique and we chatted. She said that I might be missing an elective class and should see the guidance counselor about that. BLEGH, just when I was getting happy about having a short schedule. Man, I arrived mad wake awake and started to get so sleepy by the time I got anywhere close to the door.
By the time we finally got in, first period was practically over. What crap to miss the first day. And to think, I even stored the free AM newspaper in my bookbag as something to read during section.
In English class, we had an open topic essay to give the teacher a feel of our writing style. I was blegh and had no idea what to write. I ended up writing the most random stupidest paper about school safety... Well, not really, I barely even got to my topic when the bell rang coz I had spent so much time trying to come up with a topic.
I don't think I'll be liking my science class too much... the way my teacher is... He just gives off a very strict and demanding attitude... Having us do a little group intro to promote cooperation is just... bleh...
Well, overall, today was better than yesterday but either way, I think it's too early to judge. I shouldn't be so negative when it's still just the second day.
Shit, I was hoping to use the weekend to clear my mind but my sister is coming back for the weekend. Ugghhh... this sucks ass.
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Monday, September 13th, 2004
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This year was a little strange. Curiousity kinda made me somewhat excited about the new schoolyear-- being a senior and all; I wondered what that experience was going to be like... Yet, at the same time, this was the first year that I was actually so anxious and upset about this whole thing... I was really nervous this morning as I sat in my bed (still half asleep), wondering how it was going to be.
I think I was mostly shakey coz I had no clue what my schedule was going to be like--- I had enough credits for every subject area so I didn't know what kinda classes were left. And whatever it was, I would have to really dedicate myself since it's my last chance to bring up my average --- probably the other reason why I was nervous. Whenever I feel my life is unstable; I tend to feel like shit.
But anyway, I figured this year was gunna be another sloppy disaster like every term... I figured the doors would probably open an hour late and everyone would take forever to get in-- followed by more chaos as everyone has messed up programs and yatta yatta... I was actually taking my time to leave the house but my mom wanted to be on the safe side and nagged me to leave early.
Knowing there would be another huge ass line as usual, I always walk around the block to get to school whenever it's the beginning of a new term/year... As I turn around the corner, I first notice Seoyeon; buying... bananas from a stand... er... okay, lol. I was going to tap her but then I saw Aryana with Andrew. She ran to me so I ran to her... and she flung her arms out... I kinda saw this coming and gave her a hug... Eh, I guess I'm alright with her now. You know? Some time apart is always good in order to let go of grudges.
She told me she never received the postcard and when I said the room was "401"... She reminded me that that was the lunchroom... I was like,"... oh... yea..." She didn't understand the new section thing either with "E43".
So we chatted a bit and walked to school... Yep, big line as expected. Shockingly though, the doors were already opened and the line was actually moving really fast compared to what you'd expect. It still felt like forever though. But there were still the typical frustrations. Santa Claus (that's what everyone calls him) was actually ridiculous enough to expect us to line up in a single line... HELLO? We have all these bunched up across an entire BLOCK. Some random girl next to me yelled out loud,"I FEEL LIKE I'M IN JAIL!" and then ducked down. It was funny.
Wow, amazing but the school was finally organized this year... Got my program and metro card with no problem at all... But then we had to sit in damn section for like frigging TWO HOURS. Oh my god! I was just sitting there talking to Aryana and Laura the whole time. I was able to kill myself... I have no clue why I didn't just get up and start walking around the halls; I don't know, just didn't really feel upto it...
Anyway, it seems they've made up all these new classes that sound very fancy-like and pretty much everyone in our section has similar programs but with different patterns. No teachers that I was familiar with and most of them being on the seventh floor. Laura said the new section thing was probably a result of Yallow and International houses trying to become one. Ew, that thought sickened me. I've hated Yallow kids from the start and being with them last year solidified that feeling. I was seriously hoping not to get class with them again.
What's really whack is that everyone (in the section at least) seems to have this "advisory" class... which is TWELVETH period on Wednesdays! I don't even have a clue what time 12th period starts... And how annoying would it be to have to go home and then come all the way back? Seriously, I would be tempted to not go at all; there's a huge time gap in between.
So now I have six periods a day... getting out at 12:45; man, I so wish I had lunch during 6th so I could at 12:10 instead. After section, we proceeded to second period. I had gym which is 8th floor weight training... Been there for a while before; not very ideal and I Mr. Rodgers seems to have this whole attitude and shit. Ja Von didn't like him sophomore year. I only saw a few people I recognized... but didn't really know. Blegh. All the boys are still generally obnoxious; probably the main reason why I never liked boys gym.
I ran into the IB kids in the hallway. It was nice talking to Trudi, Natalia and Octavia... No classes with them this year. Too bad.
Next was "Theory of Knowledge" which is basically a philosophy class that's going to consist of a LOT of debating and class discussion. That may sound cool and all but I'm a very quiet person; I don't like to speak up. That teacher is also a dean so I don't know what to expect from her; she immediately gives off a somewhat... stern, prestigious image. Call me child-ish but I don't get along with those kinda people. Our first assignment is to come up with an answer for "What makes our life ours?" Hmm...
English 7 was... meh and for science; I get a whole class specifically on "Genetics and Evolution". That kinda sucks coz it was certainly not my favorite topic in biology but I'm still open to it. I really wanted AP Psychology but of course, I have very little right to choose considering that I slacked off last year in my AP classes. Aryana got it... lucky for her.
Overall, I'm pretty pissed off about my schedule. The actual subject areas themselves are of little relevance; as a matter of fact, I actually think these classes seem pretty cool and was really excited at first...
But as a senior, I was just expected something... more different. I feel like I'm still being treated like a child (along with all the other seniors with similar programs) with this same old routine from all the previous years since grade school. It feels like it's still the same ol' boring system where you have every "subject" class but just at a higher level; the fancy terms were merely disguises and fabrications.
I was expecting something far more mature; being that I feel like I've already had enough and/or finished all off that child-ish crap mentioned above. Why the hell don't they start teaching us something USEFUL; as teenagers that are stepping into an adult world. I could think of so many things... finance, cooking, driving... ANYthing that deals with adulthood.
That's not the only issue...
The way the school system works is that you're generally stuck with the certain group of people from your house for most of the day in most of your classes... But there were always classes that had students from various houses mixed together. I recall last year that Ms. Lin had said they were trying to change that and keep houses as separate as possible.
Well, they really carried it out this year. Last year, I had the most diverse schedule EVER; with a different group of people every period; from different grades and houses.
This year, I'm stuck with basically the same group of people in all my classes... And THEY: being just typical International/Yallow kids I've seen around but for the most part; don't even know their names (I didn't have any international classmates last year). The keyword here is... TYPICAL; not strikingly interesting or anything at all. Blegh...
Well, I still haven't been to Statistics yet... but I'm 100% sure it'll probably just be with those same boring people anyway.
What this means is...
This year is going to be sooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo boring. Man, I miss Megatech now more than ever (here we go again...).
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Sunday, September 12th, 2004
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I haven't seen the movie "Garden State"; it looks retarded and I hate soulful movies like that... but from what I've heard, the soundtrack is insanely popular. I was amazed out how many people went out to buy it. I figured there's no way it could be THAT good... I mean, c'mon, how could music during a movie stick to you THAT much...?
Well, I got the soundtrack so I could see for myself and I've only listened to a few of the tracks... Eh, it's okay I guess... not really catchy or anything; don't see what the big fuss is all about. But anyway, I guess the song I'm listening to now is pretty nice. It's the same song they played in the commerical... but it kinda makes me sleepy... too dramatic, meh.
I think I'm liking "Mariah Carey's Greatest Hits" a LITTLE bit more... lol, not really. Great voice and all but I can't get into her really old-school stuff; like from her first album-- that was before my time (and those songs were considered her best). The cover was what got my attention in the first place... She looks so pretty.
Man, if I wanna watch REA this week, I'll probably have to shell out quite a bit of money. That's probably the number one reason why I don't watch movies often. If I wanna go with friends; they always pick the expensive cinemas in manhattan coz we all live so far apart... Sighh...
Yaay! Altelier Iris has FINALLY been approved for a US release! It's about time stupid Sony! It won't be out til 2005 as expected but I'm not really that excited about it; I can wait. SH4 is out I hear... Then Shin Megami Tensei Nocturne and Wild Arms Alter Code F... Sighh... I need more money.
Well, school is tomorrow and I got the postcard a few days ago... Like every year, I tend to get a little worried when it doesn't show up but they always wait til the last minute to mail them. My homeroom is going to be 401!! YES! No more having to walk upto the 8th floor!! ...But how come my section is now "E43" and not "E42"? What the fuck? It better still be the same group of people... Man, they keep changing my section; JUST as I was finally getting used to these people.
Hmm... they're showing The Lion King 1.5 on Disney... cute... maybe I'll actually watch it. (random)
Last night; some of my stepdad's friends from out of state came to visit. When my mom came home; they spontaneously decided to go out for dinner... So I got dressed and we got into the car... They opened up a new East buffet restaurant along Queens Blvd and it looked really nice but it was closed.
So we went to the usual place... Being from another state, they supposedly didn't get to have true Chinese cuisine often... or... whatever. But either way, since they were on vacation; they wanted to try out as much food as possible... They ordered all these really fancy stuff and lots of it... Lobster, fried crab, and my favorite was this really hearty looking rice dish... Yum.
Hmm... I really wonder what my schedule's going to be like; since I've finished all my classes... I'll probably get a bunch of random elective classes and stuff. I know it's probably gonna be all messed up when I first get it... It's like every year... And then I'm going to have to run around and wait on long lines to get it fixed... Same ol' same ol'...
But I wonder what I should do to prepare...
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Friday, September 10th, 2004
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I saw Wicker Park today. I've been deeply interested for a while now after seeing the commericals. I have a huge obsession for psychological and psychotic romance related themes. It's something I seem to always incorporate in almost all of my original fictional writings.
I haven't watched movies in a long time simply because I can't even recall the last time I saw a good one... Blegh, movies take up so much time and money; it's hardly worth risking another disappointment. But "Wicker Park" definetely looked promising...
Anyway, I didn't really like it much up until the end. It was completely different from what I had expected and not nearly as good. I seriously thought this was going to be some murder mystery thriller (so did everyone else, probably) but it was actually very undramatic... Or at most; MELOdramatic and very juvenile.
The characters really don't do much in general; let alone in terms of taking control of their relationships. Most of the events occur based on coincidence and a HUGE amount of miscommunication. The constant flashbacks gave me a real headache because the transitions between past and present were so... loud and quick; rather than smooth.
It's not very psychologic either. It doesn't really make you "think" much. You just have to pay attention. They basically just cutted up the past events into flashbacks and scattered them throughout the movie so that you can place them together... but the end result is a bit... silly...
I think Rose Brynne did a good job with her character... then again, it's pretty hard to judge considering that she WAS insane... The rest of the cast was pretty bleh... Matt's friend "Luke" was sooo annoying!
It wasn't until the very end that I learned to appreciate this movie... Oh my god! I practically jumped off my seat when they started playing "The Scientist" in the final scene and into the credits. I loooove that song so much! I think that alone was what made me automatically like this movie. It made the ending scene so touching and sweet --- So YES, I would recommend that people go out and watch this movie!
And yes, of course I'm looking foward to Resident Evil tomorrow... I think I've been saying that for a while... Anyway, Milla Jovovich looks so hot in this time (for some reason, she didn't appeal to me in the first movie). Sienna Guillory looks OKAY; they could've done a much better job with her hair. Anyway, I'm dying to see if she manages to portray Jill's character well. Carlos looks pretty cute. Lol, I didn't like him in the game.
On Monday, I went clothing shopping with my mom, grandma and Jenny. I bought two bundles of ankle socks at VIM. Lol... they're cute but why the hell do all my socks keep disappearing so easily?
I don't know why but even though I was the one that wanted to go, I wasn't in much of the mood to shop. Ugh... I love clothes and all but I HATE having to browse through stores and try on shit. It's such a tiresome hassle... So when we went to JCPenney, it was mostly just my mom browsing through the bedding section for some blankets while me and Jenny were trying out all the display beds (I love doing that!).
Oh my God! These beds were even more comfortable than normal! Sooo comfty! I wish I could just take them home with me. Me and Jenny were just running around and trying every bed without an hesitation. We'd take off our shoes and sprawl across the pillows and literally just lay there for minutes... My grandma was doing the same thing but she couldn't keep up with us and mostly just stayed in one place.
The first bed we tried out had what I thought to be just a random picture frame some customer had left... I picked it up, thinking it looked so nice... And then I flip it around to read: "Please do not sit on the display beds." Heh, I just kept hiding all of them underneath the blankets at each bed and instructed Jenny to do the same.
My mom made me hold onto my stepdad's cellphone for that day so that we wouldn't have to bother searching for each other after separation... It has a camera on it so I eventually figured out how to snap some photos of relaxing on the bed. DAMN, why does my stepdad always gotta use chinese programming for everything! My GOD! As if learning to get used to some damn simple basic english wouldn't be useful in the future?
They also had this "massaging" chair on display. It felt weird as hell... like I was being tickled... I bought a black muscle shirt and a pair of sand pants from H&M... I was so pissed when I found out those pants weren't on sale... Grr... it's a good thing that they fit ok.
Anyways, those photos I snapped are probably gone forever -sniffle- since I handed the cellphone back without bothering trying to figure out how to connect the phone to the camera... Coz I guess I just don't really care all that much... meh...
I'm upto the part where you get the sacred orb in SO3... THANK GOD the plot is FINALLY getting somewhere; now it's actually getting a lot more interesting.
I watched the Real World Philly on Tuesday... Blegh, I don't think I'm going to like this season too much. Sarah is sooo annoying because of the way she literally hogs the spotlight with her obnoxious sex addiction; which is completely uninteresting. The two twins also seem to be in the spotlight; a shame that they both look dorky. Willie's kinda annoying and seems pretty shallow. Shavonda's really pretty and seems nice. Karamo seems pretty cool... I WAS SOOO shocked to find out he was gay. Er... and the other girl, Melanie was no where to be seen...
I didn't really like the San Diego cast much either but I'm gonna miss the relationship between Brad and Cameron; it was pretty funny and amusing.
Bleh, LJ loads extremely slow for me... I wish I had an early adopter account -sniffle-.
And lastly, on a sad note, school starts on Monday... NUUU~!!!
- dearest beloved
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Monday, September 6th, 2004
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Whee, my mom's going to be so pissed to find me still awake, as usual (to both statements). She's always tries to force me to get back on track with a stable sleeping schedule before school begins... Which, of course, makes sense but c'mon, old habits die hard. Besides, it's because of the fact that your vacation is slipping away that you want to be able to enjoy what's left of it as much as possible.
I don't really know how to explain it but for some strange reason; blogging with b2 is a completely different feeling from blogging on lj... I don't know, I guess it's just coz my domain is such a wreck right now that LJ seems more... professional; I guess. Anyway, it strangely makes me feel more inclined... to write more, even though I'm afraid I'll end up babbling nonsense... Ack, that's exactly what I'm doing now. Shit, anyway, I just noticed that the text on this new version of Semagic is REALLY small; I hope that there's a way to fix that...
So I've been playing SO3 a lot lately and posted some snapshots on my yafro. Hmm... I'll be honest, the game's pretty blegh so far. The storyline is so off-focus; it's ridiculous because the whole eight hours have basically just been sidetracking... But after figuring out how to do item creation; I must say the game has certainly become more fun. Item creation is nowhere near as fun as in SO2 but it's still amusing. I hate the fact that it's such a huge gamble because you invest so much FOL; only to end up with nothing.
Fayt's pretty annoying; in a Tidus way only he can't seem to mind his own business. He has this overly morale self-righteousness that causes him to debate over everything. Anyway, evenso, it's impossible for me to dislike Fayt simple coz his outfit is so kickass. Unfortunately, the way he gets it is pretty stupid.
I went to Chinatown with my family today for their grocery shopping coz I needed to get a haircut... I tend to let loose over the summer and let my hair look like whatever crap and then cutting it REAL different before school. I'm just so sick and tired of long hair. Seriously, even in previous entries, I've ranted about how I always wanna grow my hair but I end up not coz it's such a pain. Well, I think this is officially going to be my last attempt. Long hair is a BITCH. Looking back, I think I always looked best with sorta... medium short hair... about an inch or so. Not trying to sound conceited (I sooo am not!) but I specifically remembered I looked damn good on Valentine's Day in my sophmore year... Too bad those were the times when I didn't have a USB cable for my webcam... I might have just become a serious camwhore at that time, heh.
So first, I went to Pho Bang to eat coz I was the last one to wake up and everyone already ate. My mom gave me the money and I went with Jenny. Jenny didn't wanna eat anything, she just sat there with her cup of ice water. Meh, I never ordered from a restaurant before. It just goes to show you how much of a child I still am at heart and why I'm so afraid of growing up.
I mean, I don't wanna deal with all this responsibility. Now that my dad's sick, everyone keeps bugging me to learn how to drive. Honestly, in the past I really wanted to, like all teens do... but no way in hell do I wanna be stuck as the taxi driver for the whole family. As for cooking; that's something I honestly DO wanna learn to do. The thought of it is kinda scary coz it'd take a lot out of my daily life but I can't put up with my grandma's cooking anymore. Lol.
In all honestly, I'm waiting for my stepdad to die and then, I swear, I will start taking responsibility as the "man of the house". But I seriously can't imagine myself being someone's taxi driver. I am the most impatient bitch ever; I HATE following my family anywhere; let alone being the one that has to wait for them and shit... I just can't imagine myself putting up with that. I generally can't stand my family to begin with; I'd probably go crazy and run over people.
So anyway, afterwards, I went to get a haircut at some random place. Geezus, some girls can be so picky when it comes to their hair. I had to wait forever coz this one girl was so difficult to satisfy... But anyway, I just wanted my hair to be really short. That's it. Nothing specific this time... Nothing in mind... I just wanted it really short.
Anyway, yaay~! I feel so much more refreshed and cooler now that my head is... so much more naked! But it looks kinda bad (on me, at least), meh. Oh well, it's not like I'm good looking anyway and it'll probably grow back quickly. It kinda looks like a weird combination between Tom Cruise and Sharon Stone... if that makes ANY sense at all.
Ack, I'm so frigging stressed out about summer vacation ending so soon. I swear, I feel like it gets shorter and shorter every year... It felt like only two weeks or so. I haven't really been hit with the reality that school's gonna be starting soon, otherwise I'd stop wasting time and actually prepare... SATs and college preparation are sooo scary!!
Hmm... oh yea, I forgot to mention that once again, I wasted 3.5 hours watching this years VMAs last week. Blagh, why do they seem to keep getting worse every year? I mean, honestly, every year, I mostly anticipate seeing Britney's outfit but she didn't even show up! Heck, that just ruined the whole show right there. There were no surprises or even humor. At least J.Lo showed up; I missed her last year. Overall, it felt like so many people were missing this year.
Hoobstank sounded terrible; proof that they can't sing. And either Nelly's been working out or he just looked really huge next to Christina. Alicia Keys did a good job; great song.
Anyway... I HATE THAT SONG FROM JET SOO MUCH! HOW COULD THEY WIN AN AWARD?! MOST ANNOYING SONG EVER. They should DIE for that awful excuse for a "song" where they just stretch out the damn chorus line sooo frigging much!
Hmm... here's a random opinion I just had to voice somewhere coz I had no idea where else to do so and I just had to get it off my chest...
About Britney's wedding...
I believe that no matter WHAT the financial situation is... a girl should NEVER NEVER NEVER EVER have to purchase her own engagement thing. Not EVER, even if you're marrying Oprah Winfrey.
I mean seriously... that just destroys everything, it makes the whole concept look like a joke and the groom look like a complete loser. That Kevin guy should be extremely embarassed and ashamed except for the fact that he's freeloading off of Britney anyway. He's just a fucking pussy.
An engagement ring is supposed to symbolize a man's worth; it's his proposal and gift to the woman he loves.
Even if all he could afford was some cheap plastic shit; they should just use that for the time being. So that way the husband can WORK HARD and STRIVE towards getting something better for his woman; what she really deserves.
That's what a REAL man would do.
- dearest beloved
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Friday, September 3rd, 2004
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Wheee~! Well, this is going to be my temporary journal for now I guess... Sigh... Just thinking about that ridiculously annoying situation with my domain makes me so frigging aggravated. I don't even wanna have to worry about whether or not there's going to be a solution anytime soon-if ever.
Anyway, even if I can't keep making layouts for fun; I still like to blog in general just as much and I hate to fall behind. I hope I find someone nice and RELIABLE enough to host me...
Last week, we went to target and bought a plastic bin with some drawers. Yay~! Damn, the way I store my games now has been completely revolutionized after all these years! Still haven't decided for sure how to sort them... but right now, this seems to be a huge save over those nasty chests under the bed... Besides, they look so pretty in those clear plastic drawers! Too bad they store so little...
I also got a blue dress shirt from Kenneth Cole- I love that brand! He kicks so much ass! Damn, I need to learn how to iron and I really need to buy a tie... I just wish ties weren't so frigging expensive.
Then we went to Modell's... Where I TRIED on a bunch of shoes just for fun... Damn! No wonder why Converses have lasted for so long; they're so comfortable because of the flexible velvet material! I was so surprised to see how thin the boxes were but it's mainly the fact that they're so cheap that gives them all the credibility. Hmm... the new Phat Farms with the plastic logos like nice from above view but something about them just don't like quite right from the side...
My mom bought me a black Jansport bag. Yay~! It's weird that something so simply made me feel so good. I've been wanting one for so long but have been reluctant coz twenty bucks is just waay too much for a brand that is sooo outdated. I like their original plain models because they have a perfect balance between durability and compactness. I'm so sick and tired of Nike bags always breaking and North Faces have too many strings and buckles.
Anyway, yesterday I was taking advantage of tax-free week... I went to Queens Center and bought two shirts from H&M, Converses and a tanktop from VIM. Wow, I was surprised at how cheap the shirts were from H&M... I really wanted a pair of pants though... but I couldn't find the style I was looking for.
While I was at the register at VIM; I saw a pretty nice looking Timberland bag on the wall. It was a newer model and I decided to buy it since it was more durable than the regular bags.
Damn yo, when I went to Gamestop, they literally armed themselves; they had a whole shelf lined up with copies of SO3; they were seriously ready. Lol.
Anyway, I had to wait for SO3 to arrive at ToysRUs in order to purchase it coz I'd much rather spend a gift certificate than my own cash. Similar to FFX-2, it took a while for it to actual arrive at stores. I bought it today and have only a bit of it...
Damn yo! They used the exact same sound effects from SO2! Talk about nostalgia!
Don't you just get so tired of the concept of going from a beautiful futuristic metropolis to some underdeveloped medieval setting? Man... happens everytime... That city where you started off in was pratically breathtaking... The scenery was just gorgeous.
Ciao.
- Dave
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